Hurt, betrayed, disillusioned.
I thought I knew him, I thought he cared,
But the words flew from his mouth,
and my trust disappeared.
Hurt, that my claim was so easily ignored,
Betrayed, that my pain wasn’t of worth.
Disillusioned, that my love, my friend,
could so easily dismiss the terror brought on by his pairs,
even in mirth.
What do I do when even the closest don’t care,
Don’t care or are scared they themselves might be seared.
Men, all men, and victims, he said.
If so, what am I? The villain?
or does he perceive me as a player drawing them in?
I am neither, only a woman with no say.
A woman with no sway.
I am at the mercy of men in every way.
Who then is the villain,
Who then is the player?
Not I,
I only want to live free from fear,
To live free from despair,
To live FREE